A Letter To My Mother.

Mom, Madre, Mother, Jade, Darling, Birth Giver.

I love you so very much.

You are such a strong woman and you have had to make some seriously hard decisions over the course of your life. You are my best friends and you're so very important to me.

I don't know what I would do without you. I know it seems like I can live without you in my life or that I would be fine if you weren't around, but I wouldn't be. Thats not even remotely true.

You're such an important part of my life.

You are my rock.

My dearest friend.

My Go-To.

My role model.

My advisor.

My Whole Heart.

These last few weeks have been hard for me. They have been hard for you too. But, our daily talks and our weekly Zoom calls with the family is what makes this all a little more bearable.

Over the years, we haven't had the best relationship. We fought a lot through my younger teenage years. I want to apologize for the way I acted when I was younger. I wasn't in the best place and I took it out on you. I do want you to know that I took everything you said or told me, into consideration and into my heart. Bad or good, helpful or not. It was always heard, maybe not listened to, but heard.

I heard every "I love you"

I heard every "Im disappointed in what you are doing"

I heard every "you're doing great muffin"

I heard everything, Listened to some.

These last few years, our relationship has grown and thrived. I don't live at home anymore. I don't see you every single day. We are not annoying each other and breathing down each others necks.

However, I try to talk to you more. Not a "Good Morning, hows your day going?" but like really talk to you. Ive never done that before. I never thought I could. It took a very long time, but I do now. I figure its better late than never. I trust you with everything. I trust you with all of my words, my heart, and my soul.

I know this sounds like a love letter meant to be written for someone else, but its not.

Mom, you are my best friend and I love you.

You deserve the best love letters.